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Exploring Intimacy interview

I was interviewed for this website a while back and they've finally published it on the site. :)

Kink Interview: Jack’s Love of His Wife’s Sneakers (and men, but that’s another story)
Posted on December 8, 2009 by ExploringIntimacy

This one's just for you, Jack!

It seems that foot and shoe lovers around here are ready to take off! Jack is here to tell us about how he discovered his love of women’s comfy shoes, something he now explores with his wife of many years. Jack is certainly proof that marriage and kink can go together! Keep reading to learn about it.

You can call me Jack. I’m 32, married over 10 years. My first many sexual experiences were with other boys from age 7. I consider myself someplace between bisexual and heteroflexible. I am in the closet with friends and family on these desires and since highschool have only had one sexual encounter with another man.

I am really into women’s shoes. I thought for years that it was very uncommon and while, as the more “mainstream” fetishes go it still is, I am finding more and more people into it. I recently learned it has a name… retifism. The probably more unique nature to my kink here is that while I love seeing women in shoes, especially tennis shoes, it is the shoes themselves that turn me on. I love playing with a woman’s pair of shoes, either cumming on them, having sex with them, or kissing them… I also get completely aroused just by seeing a pair sitting there. I told my wife once and even showed her some pictures I had taken playing with her shoes in one of those we-were-both-over-the-top-horny-and-talking-too-much moments… she would tease me for weeks just walking through the shoe department at the store… and yes, I was hard as a rock every time.

My searches for like-minded fetishists on the internet have evidenced to me that it is probably more common among gay men, with men’s shoes. I have tried playing with my own… but honestly, they did nothing for me.

How did I get interested? Wow… I guess it started as a more typical foot fetish. I was at a retreat with my church youth group in middle school and one of the very hot high school girls was sitting on the floor in her socks and that was the first time I was turned on by a woman sexually. There was a neighbor boy who lived across the street and I would sniff his shoes while jacking off when he stayed the night… (I had a crush on him.) I often tied them to my face with the shoe strings. I don’t recall ever cumming in them though and honestly aside from that, I have had no other interest in men’s shoes at all. In 9th grade, when I started dating the girl who would later become my wife, I would lick her feet and suck her toes. We split up after I graduated and I found myself doing the same with my then fiance, Shannon. She had these Chucks that I just thought were sexy. My wife (then gf) had a pair of plain white canvas shoes that I liked too. So after a few years of marriage, I eventually started playing with my wife’s shoes and then her sisters and co-workers.

I have brought this up more recently again with my wife. She gave me a handjob with one of her dirty socks. (I have a video!) and I have also told her I would like her to use one of her shoes. Aside from that, having sex with my wife while she has her shoes on has been one way I have incorporated it, as well as fucking the shoes themselves or cumming on them and licking them clean.

I have needed to make sure I don’t leave stains on the shoes, especially those belonging to my sister in law or others who do not know I play with them. Of course, I’ve had to do the same with my wife’s because for a long time, she had no idea I played with them and then after I was “advised” not to ruin them. lol

Of course, being caught with the shoes when the borrowee is looking for them is always a concern as well.

I think the submissive nature to getting off on a woman’s dirty shoes is a large part of the lure for me. I do like how they smell, especially tennis shoes… new or worn. I feel in some odd way connected to the woman who owns them when I’ve had sex with her shoes.

When I told my wife, at first she was like… really? why? … I was of course embarrassed at having opened up that way and the humiliation was very exciting. It was the first time I had experienced that tied to sexuality. She was pretty quick to go from shocked curiosity to playful teasing. On the internet, it seems to be mostly welcomed, but I will occasionally get the comment of “freak” on the pictures I post. I just delete them.

I am looking forward to meeting with someone to play with shoes when I find someone I am comfortable with. So far, I have looked into different relevant forums but mostly those interested have contacted me after seeing my pics and videos posted to NewbieNudes or Xtube.

Resources: Google search “retifism” or “altocalciphilia” . You can check out the forum at WetHighHeels, HotShoeShots or the Shoe Fetish blog.

If you would like to contact Jack, feel free to drop him an email or visit his blog. I would note that his 11/24/09 entry is on one of my favorite topics!

Jack, thanks so much for sharing your stories with us. It isn’t often that we get interviews about long term, committed couples exploring kink together and it’s good to hear about that side, too! I hope you’ll drop us a line as you continue to explore, to tell us how it’s going.

Fantasy: Caught with her shoes

I am naked on the floor in my wife's closet, rocking my hips back and forth with my cock buried inside one of her shoes when seconds before I'm about to cum, I feel her hand on my shoulder. I'm startled as she gently rolls me over to face her. My face is flushed, both with the effort of the vigorous sexual workout and the embarrassment of being discovered on the closet floor fucking a pair of her tennis shoes.

She kneels down beside me and, as I start to look for an explanation, she just presses a finger to my lips to silence me. Awkward and fully embarrassed, lying naked on my back with my wife beside me, I try again to explain; but as soon as I open my mouth, she lifts a sock from the small pile of dirty clothes on the floor next to her and gently places it in my mouth. In one smooth motion, she lifts her leg over my chest and presses her ass against my face, holding me in place, as she leans forward to examine my predicament. Her shoe, I realize is still on my stiff cock and she laughs a little as she takes it in her hand and starts to masturbate me with it.

Before long, I find myself close again, as she jerks me off in her shoe. Her hips rock against me as she rubs her pussy against my face. The denim of her jeans is more than uncomfortably rough as she grinds against my face and squeezes her feet together so her shoes are tight against my face. The taste and scent of her dirty sock in my mouth... the raw feeling of her jeans on my face... the pressure of her shoes against my cheeks... I let out a muffled moan as my cum fills her shoe. She continues to fuck me until my erection subsides then, as abruptly as it all started, she gets up, leans over me and with her dirty saliva soaked sock still in my mouth and my cock still inside her cum filled shoe, she kisses my cheek and says, "Please clean this up when you're finished." and leaves the room as though nothing at all had happened.

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Licking Pussy

The best part of licking a woman's pussy is savoring her delicious and aromatic juices.

The first time I had ever smelled a pussy was in 1991 while my wife and I were dating. I was 15, in high school and she was 13 in middle school. We had been "going together" for a couple of months and things had naturally progressed to where she allowed me to slip my hand down her pants. I had to encourage her to let me keep going when my fingers were just shy of her pubic hair. I had experienced a handful of sexual experiences with other boys but had never played with a girl. I was her first of any kind and she was extremely shy. Before long, my fingers were tangled in her pubic hair and then I felt her pussy lips. I remember being surprised that she was wet down there. I'd had no knoweldge of a girl's pussy except what I learned in 8th grade health class and that certainly did not prepare me for this. I managed to get my middle finger in knuckle deep when her sister came out onto the porch and I pulled my hand free before anything was noticed. Dinner was ready and I had to go.

As I was walking home (I lived 4 houses down the street), I smelled my finger and intoxicated myself with her scent. I didn't want to wash my hand, but I knew the smell would fade eventually and I was too curious about how she tastes. I locked myself in my bedroom and smelled her delicious smell while I masturbated with my free hand, pants around my ankles. I sucked my finger like a little cock when I started to cum and it was one of the most amazing orgasms I had ever had up to that point.

Within 3 months of "going together" we had sex and it was only a few weeks afterward when I finally got to smell and taste her pussy. I remember it so well... sitting naked on my knees on her bedroom floor, she laid back on her bed and I scooted her bottom to the edge. I pulled her legs up around my shoulders and leaned in to kiss her. She smelled and tasted so sweet. I was hooked from that moment. It remains one of my favorite things to do and, while thinking back I have to admit I had no idea what I was doing, I've since become very good at making her cum with my lips and tongue. It is its own reward.

Wives and Masturbation

I have spoken with a lot of men, or seen posts on the various groups I am a part of, on the subject of wives and masturbation. I am surprised by how many married men there are with wives who so disapprove of their masturbatory habits that they feel they must do it privately and in secret. In some cases, their wives are so against it that it's almost as though they cheating on their wives... with themselves.

I'll admit that in the beginning of our marriage, I did this behind closed doors and often secretly as well. I chalk it up mostly to just being a little embarrassed or feeling self conscious about it... all my single life, growing up, it was done in secret, after all.

Eventually, she found the cum rags when she did the laundry. I say "found" loosely because while we weren't talking about it, I also was never exactly hiding it. A few years ago, I just said, what the heck am I being so shy about? The next time I got in the shower with her, I jerked off like I always do when I'm in there alone. It opened up a good discussion and the rest as they say is history.

My wife knows now that I masturbate several times a week, often daily and many times more than once in a day. A lot of times, I still lock the door and do it in private, not really out of necessity but because sometimes I just like to be alone. But she has seen me do it often as well. Honestly, I like it most when she watches me.

She does it too and while she is still a little self conscious about doing it in front of me, she always makes it a point to tell me after she did with this sort of 'guess what I just did' smirk on her face. It's sexy as hell. Sometimes I think that look on her face afterward is worth more than watching her.

Playing with Dirty Panties

A woman asked me some questions in response to some pictures of my sister in law's panties that I posted on Newbie and this is my response.

Her private message to me:
"My bf also is into playing around with others panties. Tell me more about what you do with them and how you feel when you get a chance to go through some girls room. Have some photos to share with you as well"

My response:
Mostly, I love to smell a woman's panties... I feel like I am in some way connecting to the essence of the woman who wore them.

I have more recently found that I love licking them clean. I love how sweet they taste. It's amazing how similar and yet still how different each woman is. I've only tasted a few... my wife's, her sister's, her aunt's, my older brother's wife's, and a girl I used to work with.

My brother's wife's panties were the first I played with. I was about 15 or 16 at the time and worked for my brother's business. I was staying the night over at his house once and woke up early after my brother had gone to get some things for work and my niece (a baby at the time) was crying upstairs. I went upstairs to see what was going on and my sister in law was laying asleep in bed with the covers half covering her, completely naked. Of course, seeing her naked breast required relief at that age. Looking back, I wish I would have tried to touch or kiss them while she slept, but well... hind sight and all. So I locked myself in the bathroom and there on the floor were a pair of lacy black panties. I smelled them and it was purely intoxicating. I felt like I could cum right then without even touching myself. It wasn't long after I started that I did cum, but I managed to clean up every bit of the sweet nectar she had left behind.

My wife's are obviously pretty easy to enjoy. Each time, I wonder with part worry and part hope... will this be the time she notices the crotch is damp and mysteriously clean when she picks them up to do laundry? How will she react?

Her sister's panties have been harder to come by, but she goes on vacation with us sometimes and occasionally stays the night. From there it is just a matter of whether or not I will have an opportunity alone long enough. Usually, I do. Playing with my sister in law's panties "feels" different. My heart is always racing, I feel all fluttery inside... I have had a crush on her for years so it's a delicious mixture of emotions... it's taboo... I feel connected to her... my wife's sister's panties are by far my favorite to play with. I'm not sure if it is all in my head or not because of how I already feel about her, but she smells and tastes the best of all I've tried.

A lot of the girls at work would change into their uniforms in the restroom and leave their clothes in a bag. I would play with them often and once, in a girl's backpack, I found 2 pairs of dirty thong panties. I took them with me. Those were the first I had taken home with me. Also deliciously sweet and they smelled wonderful. I don't have them anymore. In a fit of guilt, I tossed them along with the first pair of my wife's sister's panties I had taken. I regret that immensely.

My wife's aunt's are the most recent procurement. I took them in January of this past year during a birthday party. Her aunt is only a few years older than me. She is a nurse and so this fills so many fantasies at once. lol

I love to masturbate while I smell them. I usually get completely naked, and inhale as deeply as I can. Sometimes, I imagine she is there in the room encouraging me, other times, I imagine she comes in and catches me. Usually though, I just take it in without much fantasy. Her panties are enough on their own to consume me.

I'm thinking about purchasing some dirty panties from a woman over the internet. I'd have to set up a P.O. Box so my wife doesn't get them in the mailbox, but there is something about the thought of paying for them... with the woman knowing full well what I plan to do with them, that gets me excited.

Cumshot Video Compilation #4

Here is my 4th installment of a collection of my shots. 26 clips together in total with a preview of each in the screenshot above. Thanks again for all the support on my work. Video link below.

Silly things

Someone asked in a discussion group what sort of silly things you find yourself doing when your masturbating.

You're sitting there enjoying yourself and watching some porn and trying to imagine yourself in the scene. If you are honest with yourself, you know you must look pretty silly as it is and no one's around so why not take a few steps to make it more realistic?

I often find myself jerking my cock or bucking my hips to the same rhythm as the people fucking on the screen. Sometimes I might get myself into the same position as them. I may, for example, get on my knees because the couple I'm watching are doing it doggy style. Or I may suck on a finger as she sucks his cock.

How embarrassing would it be to get caught? How much more so while mimicking the scene? I wonder how many others do this?